Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Can't even begin to thank you...

I just can't begin to tell you how much all of your prayers, emails, gifts (I am ALL about the gifts, people), cards, phone calls, text messages, etc., have helped me over the last 6 weeks or so.

I will share with y'all that if this had happened even two years ago, I would have run like the wind. No WAY would I have stuck around...I would have let "someone else" handle it. Just call me when it's all over and it's all good.

God had another plan. And part of His plan was that Beth would be pulled into our church via her boys (God uses anyone and everyone) and by the way the girls in our bible study reached out and accepted Beth from day 1. The fact that we were doing Esther...for just a time as not lost on our bible study group. Nor was it lost on our Pastor who brought it up at the graveside service for Beth.

Yes, this sucks. Yes, it's hard. Yes, I am sad and grieving and will be for an undetermined amount of time. But I am also able to recognize some good out of all of this. I was able to get to know Beth in an entirely deeper way. A God-Heart connection (pulling the God Card as my bff, Lori says). We prayed together. Worshipped together. Learned about God together. Being with her over the last 3 weeks of her life...the hardest damn thing I have ever had to do. Ever. And I wouldn't change it. Period.

All of you helped me get through it then. And continue to help me now. I am so thankful for each of you. To say that sounds...trite and totally nowhere near the depth of my feelings, but I have a plan. Well, okay, GOD has a plan. That plan is for all of you to be a part of my life...and He has been showing me how to love you as He loves you. He did that by the way you loved me.

Thank you.

I love you.



  1. Love you Sooz! ANd WE wouldn't have it any other way either - 'cept mabe to be there to love on ya!

  2. Susan, (Yes, this deserves use of your real name!)
    You are an amazing woman and true servant of God. There is no higher calling than to serve, and you do that very well. I just want you to know that my heart is filled with such gratitude when I think of my first blog friend come real life friend! I love you and will stand with you through the days to come. Praying and listening.