Monday, May 4, 2009

A Tad Bit Discouraged

So, this morning I got up at 6:00 for my daily trek on the treadmill and it felt SO good!  Then I opted to just wash up a little instead of showering so I could SHRED after going to pick up the girls I babysit.  (For those of you who don't know me, I work as a childcare giver two days a week for two cute little blonde hair, blue eyed girls!  They belong to my dear friend Meeghan, who is a teacher and works two and a half days a week because she job shares with another teacher.) While I was at Meeghans house this morning I decided to jump on her scale to see how it compared to my scale, because my scale said I haven't lost a single pound.  Much to my surprise, my scale was wrong.  I am actually ten pounds heavier than I thought. So, not only did I NOT lose weight, I'm also starting ten pounds heavier.  I wanted to cry.  (Just so you know, I went out and purchased a new scale which confirmed what Meeghan's scale read.)  

Meeghan is an amazingly thoughtful friend and she blessed me with a gift card for Target as a "YAY!  You did it!  You made it through your freshmen year!" gift!  (I know. She is amazing, truly.)  So instead of purchasing more fat clothes, or my favorite trail mix only available at Target, I picked up a Dancing With the Stars Latin dance exercise DVD.  

I will not let the scale discourage me again.  I know I am moving my body more everyday than I have in the last nine months.  30 minutes on the tread mill, 20 minute SHRED and 40 minute Latin dancing.  I am eating all the right things.  My portions are small.  My snacking is planned out every day and it is all really good stuff.  

I know I am doing everything I can possibly do to get this weight off, and if it seems as if I am a little obsessed about this thing, I am.  I'll admit it.  You can't know how discouraging it feels to be up 35 lbs in a year.  It is just not good.  All of my summer clothes are at a size I am comfortable in, and I am going to get back to that size.  I am determined to live a different lifestyle.

I have a theory as to why I packed the weight on.  This time last year I was VERY stressed.  (Remember Frannie?)  I had a ton of really intense heart stuff going on and I think I was just really down.  After I decided to go to school I think the stress abated some but then as soon as school started I have been on high speed, going pretty much non-stop.  Sleeping about 4-5 hours a night, running around like nuts all the time. Trying to balance my school life with my main priority--my family.  I don't have a house keeper, nannie or a chef! (Haha!)  I powered through all of this year and I think that even though I loved it, there was still an underlying level of stress that sort of never went away.  

I feel like I am coming down from it now, and I am really glad to be creating new habits, because they can only help me next school year!  

The true benefits of fueling my body with good nutrients and working out are that I am sleeping better at night, I have more energy and I am finding it easier to turn my brain off at night.  (Something that has plagued me for forever!)

So I'm sticking with it! (And staying off the scale until I start to feel my clothes feeling different!)

Well, that's all!  


  1. I started to comment and it got long, so I posted instead ...

    LOVE YOU!!!!!

  2. staying off the scale except 1x a week is very very freeing!! You go girl! We are NOT going from one kinda bondage to another - no ma'am!
    love you to pieces!